When you live with a health condition, oftentimes there are some unwanted — or “embarrassing” — symptoms you have to learn to live with. This can be especially true when you are struggling with depression.
Maybe you can’t remember the last time you showered, and dry shampoo just isn’t covering it up anymore. Maybe your once-satisfying sex life has taken a hit, and you can’t enjoy physical intimacy. Or maybe your emotions feel out of your control, and you can’t stop them from coming out in the “wrong” way at the “wrong” time.
No matter what your experience of “embarrassing” depression symptoms looks like, we want you to know you aren’t alone. The only way we can break the shame and stigma surrounding symptoms of depression is to talk about them, so to open up this discussion, we asked our mental health community to share with us depression symptoms they were most embarrassed of.
Before we begin, we want to preface by saying that feelings of embarrassment are very real, and like all feelings, are completely valid. But even though it’s natural to feel embarrassed sometimes, we want you to know it’s more than OK not to be OK and there is no shame in struggling with depression.
Without further ado, here’s what our community shared with us:
1. Not Showering
“The most embarrassing symptom l live with is not having the motivation to get up and shower. My favorite thing in life is showers and baths. My depression is so bad that l can’t even do that anymore. I’m being called lazy now, talked down [to] because l let myself go. l wish they could live in my head and body for a couple hours to see that it’s so much more than me being lazy.” — Kandis G.
“When I wake up, I just can’t find the energy to force myself and into the shower. I know it makes me look like a lazy bum, but it’s a real struggle every day.” — Billy P.
2. Low Sex Drive
“Sexual dysfunction/lack of desire. Also being overweight.” — Jerry F.
“When I was depressed, it was not being able to have sex… It ruined my life.” — Jazzae C.
3. Not Cleaning